I Don't Have Mama, Can I Spend A Day With You, Ma'am? — A Little Girl Asked Hells Angels Woman

Chapter 6

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Daniel stared at it.

“How do you know?”

“You told me she dropped it outside a grocery store.”

He smiled.

“I forgot.”

“The motorcycle didn’t.”

That became the philosophy of the restoration.

Not everything damaged needed to be erased.

Some marks proved the journey had happened.

On the first Saturday in September, the engine was ready.

Everyone gathered outside the shop.

Daniel no longer needed crutches.

Nora held her phone up to record.

Night Ravens riders crowded the parking lot.

Ellie stood beside Mara.

“Ready?”

Ellie nodded.

Mara pressed the starter.

The engine turned.

Once.

Twice.

Nothing.

Ellie looked worried.

Mara adjusted the choke.

“Machines enjoy drama.”

She tried again.

The Triumph coughed.

Then roared alive.

Ellie screamed.

Daniel covered his mouth.

The sound filled the lot.

A sound not heard in years.

Daniel began crying before he realized it.

Ellie ran to him.

He wrapped his arms around her.

“That’s Mom’s bike!”

“I know.”

“It sounds good!”

“It always did.”

Mara turned toward Nora.

Her daughter was crying too.

Mara suddenly felt overwhelmed.

Not by sadness.

By the strange realization that she had spent most of her life believing broken things had two possible futures.

Stay broken.

Or be replaced.

She had never understood a third possibility.

Restoration.

Not returning something to what it had been.

That was impossible.

Restoration meant carrying its history forward without allowing the damage to be the final chapter.

Nora lowered her phone.

“You okay?”

Mara nodded.

“I think so.”

Nora stepped closer.

For twelve years Mara had imagined their reunion.

In some versions she gave the perfect apology.

In others Nora forgave her immediately.

Sometimes they hugged.

Sometimes they screamed.

Reality was quieter.

Nora simply reached out and took her mother’s hand.

Mara stared down at their fingers.

Then squeezed.

A week later Daniel organized a small cookout behind the repair shop.

Ellie had another surprise.

She stood on a wooden crate and tapped a spoon against a glass.

“Everybody listen!”

Twenty bikers ignored her.

She shouted, “MARA SAID EVERYBODY SHUT UP!”

Instant silence.

Mara stared at her.

“I did not say that.”

“It worked.”

Laughter erupted.

Ellie held up a piece of paper.

“At school we had to write about our family.”

Daniel smiled.

Mara became nervous.

Ellie began reading.

“My family is my dad because he has always been there. My mom is part of my family even though she died, because dying does not make someone stop being important. My family is Mara because she taught me motorcycles and triangles and how not to be scared of loud engines. My family is Nora because she knows hospital words and brings good cookies. My family is also a bunch of motorcycle people who look scary but cry at movies and cannot organize anything without June.”

The parking lot exploded with laughter.

June shouted, “Accurate!”

Ellie continued.

“My teacher said families have different shapes. I think mine has a weird shape.”

More laughter.

“But I like it.”

She lowered the paper.

Daniel wiped his eyes.

Mara looked around.

For decades she had believed family was something she had lost the right to have.

Now it stood around her eating hamburgers from paper plates.

Messy.

Loud.

Imperfect.

Still here.

Ellie jumped off the crate and ran toward Mara.

“Was it good?”

“No.”

Ellie’s face fell.

“It was excellent.”

“You could just say that first.”

“Where’s the fun?”

Ellie hugged her.

Mara hugged back.

Over Ellie’s shoulder, she saw Nora watching.

Not angry.

Not wounded.

Smiling.

Mara realized there was room.

Room for Grace.

Room for Daniel.

Room for Nora.

Room for Mara.

Love did not have to replace someone to be real.

Sometimes it simply pulled up another chair.

Ten years passed.

Not quickly.

People only said that afterward.

While living them, the years contained ordinary Tuesdays, dentist appointments, broken water heaters, school exams, arguments, birthdays and Sunday breakfasts.

Ellie grew taller.

At twelve she began helping customers at Mara’s shop.

At fourteen she rebuilt her first carburetor mostly by herself.

At sixteen she wanted a motorcycle.

Daniel said no.

Mara said absolutely not.

Ellie accused them both of hypocrisy.

Nora found this hilarious.

At seventeen Ellie earned top marks in advanced mathematics and announced that she wanted to study mechanical engineering.

Mara pretended not to be proud.

Nobody believed her.

Daniel eventually became operations manager at another distribution company.

He never again worked for the warehouse where he had fallen.

Nora moved closer to Red Mesa when she accepted a nursing supervisor position at the regional hospital.

She and Mara continued repairing their relationship.

There were setbacks.

Once Nora disappeared for three months after a particularly painful argument.

This time Mara did not chase, accuse or retreat into pride.

She sent one message.

I love you. I’m here when you’re ready.

Nora returned.

That was progress.

Mara aged.

She hated it.

Her left knee became unreliable.

Long rides hurt more than they used to.

Gray spread through her hair until she stopped pretending it was only “silver highlights.”

Wes died at sixty-three after a heart attack.

June became president of the Night Ravens.

The old clubhouse roof was replaced twice.

Life continued.

The photograph from the elementary school remained on Mara’s kitchen wall.

Ellie at eight.

Mara at fifty-two.

Paper flowers behind them.

A borrowed morning that had somehow become a decade.

On Ellie’s eighteenth birthday, Mara woke before sunrise.

She drove to the repair shop.

The red Triumph waited beneath a cloth.

It had been ready for years.

Daniel had insisted Ellie wait until adulthood before taking ownership.

Mara had secretly agreed.

At nine, everyone arrived.

Daniel.

Nora.

June.

Half the Night Ravens.

Ellie came last.

She wore jeans, riding boots and the leather jacket Mara had given her the previous Christmas.

No club patches.

Just one small embroidered raven near the shoulder.

Mara stood beside the covered motorcycle.

“You know what this is.”

Ellie nodded.

Her eyes already shone.

Daniel stepped forward.

“This belonged to your mother.”

“I know.”

“She loved it.”

“I know.”

“I kept it because I didn’t know what else to do.”

Ellie hugged him.

“You did the right thing.”

Daniel laughed.

“I’ve been waiting eighteen years to hear you say that.”

Mara pulled away the cover.

The red Triumph gleamed beneath the morning sun.

Ellie touched the tank.

Her fingers found the tiny scratch Mara had preserved ten years earlier.

“You left this.”

“Your mother left it.”

Ellie smiled.

Mara handed her the key.

Ellie stared at it.

For several seconds she did not take it.

Then she whispered, “I wish she could see me.”

Daniel answered.

“So do I.”

Ellie looked at Mara.

“Do you think she’d be mad?”

“About what?”

“About you.”

Mara understood immediately.

“No.”

“How do you know?”

“I don’t.”

Mara smiled.

“But if your mother was anything like everyone tells me, she’d probably complain about how long the restoration took.”

Daniel laughed.

“That sounds like Grace.”

Ellie finally took the key.

Before climbing onto the motorcycle, she turned toward Mara.

“Do you remember the diner?”

“Unfortunately.”

“You thought I was weird.”

“You were weird.”

“I asked if I could borrow you for one day.”

“You did.”

Ellie smiled.

“You never really gave yourself back.”

Mara tried to answer.

Nothing came.

Ellie hugged her.

At eighteen she was nearly as tall as Mara.

Mara closed her eyes.

“I need to tell you something,” Ellie whispered.

“What?”

“I knew I wanted you to say yes.”

“That’s not exactly a revelation.”

“No. I mean I picked you before I walked outside.”

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